onsdag 1. juli 2009

No no no no...

Oh my, Oh my. I have ruined everything. I ate sooo much today. Can't even imagine how many calories it was. I feel so disgusting and fat. FAT FAT FAT! I hate myself. I need my control. I have to hold on my control. I have to do this. I must do this. I CAN do this! Tomorrow I'm gonna run 12 km. That's very long, so I know I'm gonna walk most of it, but anyways...

I hate that I ate so much first yesterday, and then today. Tomorrow I'm gonna have just 500 kcal. And 500 the next. And the next. And the next. That's my new goal; no more than 500 kcal every day the rest of the summer holiday.

On friday all the neighbours, including my family, are having a BBQ. I have to eat as little as possible before it starts, but that should not be a big problem. My moter is working to 17.00 and after that I'm going to my grandparents for a very short visit because they are giving away one of their kittens. So as little as possible until 19.00!

I'm saying it again; I'm sooo thankful for all the lovely comments. You really help me back on track. I'm so glad I have you, guys!

Hunger hurts, but starving works...


3 kommentarer:

  1. This is weird, I just binged tonight ;_;

    I've been saying to myself to never binge again(I binged really much a week ago) and I just don't learn! 500kcal a day should get you back on track in no time though :) Let's just put it in the past and remember how yucky the food was, yuck food, yuck cakes, yuck sugar yuck yuck yuck..

    Sorry, this is not directed at you, I'm justa little upset because yeah.. I binged like I said.. *sigh*

    Try saying the number you want to see on the scale while you're running, something to keep you going ;)

  2. don't worry,
    everyone slips up now and again,
    tomorrow is a new day, fresh start.
    you can stick to your plans,
    were all here to help.
    I know you can do it!

  3. It'll be fine, you slip but you pick youself up soon after!
    Just as long as you have your goal in mind you can make it! :3 I'm rooting for you