I watched the film "A secret between friends" today. I simply love that film! I really recommend it. It's about two girls, Lexi and Jen, who becomes best friends, and both of them gets an eating disorder. Lexi have just moved in and begins on the volleyball team at the school. There she meet Jen, who is the best player and a very popular girl. Lexi finds out that Jen are trowing up when she eats. Lexi is also told to lose a few pounds by her trainer, so Jen and Lexi starts dieting together. Soon, Lexi develops anorexia, while Jen develops bulimia. I wan't tell anymore, but if you haven't seen it, you really should.
I found some books about eating disorders in the library, but they wasn't that good, so I only looked through them. I really like libraries because it is so calm and peaceful there. It seem like they have every book in the world in there, and you can find whatever you are looking for. I borrowed 2 movies; "Kautokeino-opprøret" and "Gone with the wind". Haven't seen either of them before, but I hope they are good.
I haven't really lost weight, but I haven't gained either, so that is good. Yesterday I had around 700 kcal, and today I'm not sure, but I have been eating like a cow. Maybe 1700 kcal, not more than 2000. When I got up in the morning I had this good plan for the day, but my mother had brought home some cakes from a party last night, so I had one piece. And another. And even though I haven't really binged, I let myself eat "normal" for today. It's really difficult to eat what other people call normal, cause I feel sooo guilty and disgusting and sad.
Tomorrow I'm gonna run in the morning, right after breakfast. I do' know what I'm gonna eat as breakfast, but I have more benefit of the running if I eat a little bit first. Maybe a low-fat yoghurt (67 kcal)? What would you have eaten in the morning before a jog?!?
Thanks again for all the lovely comments. I am really surprised that I have people that have joined my site. You know, I didn't expect it at all! Thanks, everyone. You really help me on my way to perfection<3
PS: I don't know why the text are like sitting together. I'm not very good at computer stuff!