søndag 2. august 2009


First of all, I'm sorry for beeing away so long. I have been home all the time, but I didn't deserve to be on here. I've been terrible with the whole eating-thing. My stomach is just so bloated. I look so fat. I hate it. And on Friday I'm going away on camping, and I was supposed to be down to 55 kg by then. There is no way I can do that. Oh, I'm so angry at myself. Most of these days have started good, but then I've eaten something and felt like it's all distroyed. So then I've just continued eating. WTF?!? But....,

It's too late to change on that now. I just have to do my very best the 5 next days. I don't wanna weigh myself tomorrow. I may do it on Tuesday, I dunno. We'll see. It all depends on how I feel. It's like the weight makes up the entire day. If the weight is bad, I just lose all the inspiration, but if the weight is good, I'm good :D Make sense, does it?! Heheh, thought so.

Anyways. I don't have a plan for the next days, but I have to say that I can't let myself go over 500 kcal. 500 will be the absolutely maximum, but I think I'll try to do better than that. I have to.

And, I nearly forgot. I have 29 followers. OMG, that's amazing. Thank you to all of you. You are such a great support to me. I love to read all your comments, they're so lovely<3

I'll see you all tomorrow then and tell you have the day was.

PS: I was wondering if (vixenchick) could invite me to you're blog. I would love to read it! :D

3 kommentarer:

  1. You remind me so much of myself. But I've been really really positive lately. I'm far behind on my "weight loss schedule" but I just feel like I'm gonna be able to do this. I think even that last week made me realize kinda how silly I've been. I've decided to become healthy. Eat fish oil, exercise LOADS and stuf like that.

    and hey, I would give you my msn but I don't really want it to be public, so where should I send it?

  2. Oh deary... i've been doing the same thing: doing so good until i eat one single thing and then my mind freaks and says "oh you ruined it; eat now while you can. eat eat eat until you burst!" Ugh i hate it. But you'll do better, and so will i. We can overcome this together.

  3. i hate it when things like that happen ://
    and sometimes my binges can go on for like a week if im not careful :(
    im glad you're back though yay!
    stay strong <333